Last year at this time I was happy just to have the chance not to screw my life up farther.
Check and mate.
Makes me wonder what the next year looks like. When I had Christmas last year I am alone and totally headstrong about it. Working two jobs and determined to just be a mom and forget the rest of it. Getting ready to begin a new career path and desperate for the holiday season to be over so I didnt have to think about the things missing in my life or the giant bills above my head.
I would go to sleep trying to find positive thoughts and remember the things that made life wonderful.
last Christmas eve i hid in the kitchen and waited for it to be over.
This Christmas, I am going to pick up the person that I actually never thought I would meet.
I am as fabulous and independant as I have ever been, I am crazy, like stupid awesome crazy about my boyfriend, I have a good job and despite the insanity that has surrounded this year, I am excited about Christmas.
The Mayans were right. After a year of reflection I have decided yes, December 2012 did mark the end of an era, a circle or even a "world" if you want to get technical. It was a new beginning for me, it was the very rock bottom and then I had no where to go but to rise.